We've been to the Doctor already, and there was a fetal heart rate of 175! I had a feeling things were going better because I have been so completely, utterly miserable. With the miscarriage, I felt great! I didn't have any pregnancy symptoms at all. So, it's a good thing to be miserable for. If I am awake, I am nauseas. All day long, and it's hard, even medicated, to function. I also have been way more tired this pregnancy as well. Maybe because I have a toddler to keep after, I am not sure, but I cannot ever get enough sleep.
And I couldn't be more excited! Baby Faux should be here on or around January 20th. Maybe a little sooner, since the OB wants to be plan a c-section since I failed to progress with Finn. I haven't decided yet for sure. I would really like to be able to have a natural birth. However, I don't want to try my hardest for days on end, and end up exhausted, and frustrated with a cone head baby that I don't get to see/enjoy until I sleep for a day straight. I don't remember the first 24 hours of Finn's life because I was so exhausted from trying to birth him.
I haven't been able to cook, or clean much, so my house is getting away from me. I just recently had the idea to wear one of the old respirator masks when I have to do something around food (like dishes or cooking), from one of my fit testings at work (the ones that we wear in Airborne Isolation rooms), and that has helped me to be able to get some dishes done.
Colin and I both think it's a boy. Finn keeps wrestling and pile driving my uterus, like he cannot wait to wrestle his baby brother, so I think he agrees. Although, we will be happy with either one, as long as it's healthy!
Finnigan thinks it's hilarious when I gag and throw up. Since he was a baby I have made noises to make him laugh, so he thinks I am just joking with him and just CRACKS up.
It's a happy time, even though I am quite miserable. My OB felt pity for me since I was so dehydrated they had to stick me five times for a BMP and CBC, so she gave me a prescription - but it doesn't really work any better than OTC Unisom, so I don't think I will buy it again.
It's a happy time for our family, but a lot of people around us are suffering in various ways for various reasons which tempers this announcement for me a little bit. Relationships are failing, people are ill, there are kids with cancer, and Momma's losing their babies. It just seems like an unfair world right now to me, and I (The person that has this great faith that everything happens for a reason) am feeling more than a little jaded.
Maybe this pregnancy will help me to regain some faith and hope that life is good, people are good, and that good things do happen to good people.
We have prayed for this child, and it is well loved.
Oh, and we finally had two year old/family Pictures done:
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